For a Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic

If I was reading what I'm about to write a week ago I would have said "She's a fucking cracked for being happy". Mostly because a week ago I had my Aunt visiting and she usually brings me down but also because I was living a life of ignorance believing that there was only one way to solve my lovesickness which is to actually ask the guy out. So what do I do instead I man up and get the balls to tell him exactly what's on the go and what does he say to me "I'm not ready to say yes or no." or something along those lines. Most girls would obsess over this fact doing everything possible to get this guy to finally say yes. But me, I'm not most girls. I sit back and say whatev's he'll figure it out I'm amazing eventually. It maybe too late but that's his own fault. This is the way I see it... tomorrow I'm moving back in town, I start my course in less then 2 weeks, I'm going to have the apartment to myself (although I will miss my roommate like crazy), and I have this amazing friendship with a guy who I adore as a person. So what could possibly go wrong? I'm gonna stay positive. I've lived a life of sadness for far too long. It's my time to be happy.

B.O.Y. Hayley Williams Gives Great Advice

B.O.Y. : "Beware of You"

This very simple statement created by the lead singer of the band Paramore, Hayley Williams, has become the motto for thousands of teens. But what does this mean? Well according to Hayley's twitter on October 24, 2010 "BOY means “Beware of You”… Be aware of your power. We have the choice to live positively or in our own destruction.”* This in my Personal opinion is probably the best advice a person can be given. Everyone has the power to allow things to or not to happen to them. I've decided that I want to live by this statment to the fullest. In the past I had some things happen to me and when I look back I realize that if I had been smarter about it then the situation might have been different or my reaction might have been different. So I challenger each you (which is probably no one) to live by B.O.Y. even just for a day. And if you already do leave me a comment on how thankful (or unthankful) you are to know this little piece of advice and how it may have changed your life.

My Best Friends Girl

I had this big thing written about social networking and how it's affecting dating but I didn't like it so I scrapped the idea and this is what I came up with instead:

When is the right time to take your best friends girl? Or even a friends girl? And is there some sort of cycle that is caused by betraying a friend?

 I have this friend, let's call him C, well C was friend with this guy, will call him D. Well D was going out with a girl and they had been going out for a while but then all of sudden C started getting close with this girl as if getting ready to steal her away from D. Although nothing happened between C and the girl, when D found out he was furious and ended the friendship for about 9 months.

Well D didn't get with anyone for a long time. But D had this other friend, we'll call him J. And J was dating a girl an they had been going out for a while but then all of a sudden D started getting close with this girl... sound familiar? Well there's a twist in this side of the story. D get's the girl*.

*2 weeks after he breaks up with her.

So what I'm wondering will the cycle continue? Will J start getting close to a friends girl and try to steal her away? Or will the chain just end there. And are D's actions justified because J and the girl were already broken up even tho they were friends.

I sometimes wonder if relationships are worth the pain and suffering and then I see my parents and realize that without pain and suffering there wouldn't be happiness there would just be content.

Come on and do it, it's time to free what's in your soul!

It's 10:07 PM on a Thursday night and what am I doing? Listening to the spice girls. Tonight I went to the local theatre to see the play Toronto Adventures. Haven't heard of it? Well it's about a Newfie (don't you be using that language around us or we'll smack ya around.) actress who goes to Toronto to try and make it big. That's all I'm tellin' ya because I don't want to ruin it. But, I will tell ya it's friggin' hilarious! The main character, Lindsay, kind of reminds me of, well, me. She's known to those around her as being sorta weird but no matter what she sticks to her true self. But unlike Lindsay I don't have the bravery to move to a foreign (yes I just said foreign) land like Toronto to full fill my life's dream (which would be photography) so I stick to my little St. John's life as an LPN (I'm start the course in September). I'm not saying I'm not excited about it because I am but I dunno if it's what I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to travel the world and experience everything I possibly can. But for now I'll be happy that I'm able to be as free as a bird... sorta.

Finding Candyland

I sitting here at work while my boss is gone on her dinner break thinking about the positive things that have been happening to me lately. Thing time last year I was in a relationship, I had a ton of friends (I'm pretty sure I had gotten over the mishap of 2010 at this point), I didn't think anything could get any better or worse. Little did I know a few days later my life would start to take a downward spiral straight to the toilet. I was broken up with over text messaged, threatened to stop speaking to my (at the time) best friends and ex-roomies, and my other best friends stop talking to me for one reason or another. Of course all this happened over a 4 month period but it was just piling on and I didn't think that it was ever going to get easier or better. So over the 4 month period I turned to the 5 (now 3) people that could always get me through anything; the members of Paramore. With their upbeat music and meaningful lyrics I was able to find a song that fit with every problem I had to deal with and with every song always came a positive ending things will get better. I had a hard time believing at first. But if Paramore's lead singer and lyricist Hayley Williams could get past everything she sings about then so could I. So here it is August 2011 and I have finally reached candyland. I still have a select friends that have been my friends since as long as I can remember, but I also have a few new friends. My roommate Nicole is amazing. We clicked right away and I dearsay that we will be friends for a very long time even if she moves back to Nova Scotia. Then there my friend Jonathon from Marystown who did have a very good first impression on me at first but he's grown into someone that I feel I can talk to and have a good conversation with. And then theres Chris. Chris is very special to me. No we're not dating (yet) but he is more then I could ever ask for. He is someone I can turn to that won't just sing lyrics at me (no offence Paramore). To be entirely honest I could probably blame him for about 75% of my happiness. Losing him would be a major blow. But as for now I'm happy and would love to remind everyone that just because you're having a rouch time now doesn't mean it's going to last forever... it can only get better.