March 25, 2010

Curently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Bored

I'm only blogging because I have nothing to do. I'm sitting in my somewhat packed up apartment with a major headache. The only sounds are from my refrigerator and Violet (my rabbit) drinking water from her water bottle thing (I don't know the proper term for it). I suppose there are lots of things I could be doing. I still have packing to do, I could play my WWE ps2 game (yes I own a wrestling game), or I could give Scott's COD 3 game a try ( I did not ask to borrow it it was left here by him by accident), I could watch some TV or a movie, I could work on my photography course, I could read. The list just keeps on growing. But this headache doesn't allow me to do very much. Noise would just hurt me. The clicking of the keys is bad enough. I've already taken a couple of Tylenol and thats not really helping. So I'm stuck here typing this to no one because no one will probably read it. But if you are reading it you should be glad that I shall no longer be wasting your time. Good Bye

Jenn

Loud Music not only blocks out people but it helps you think!

Currently Listening To:  Britney Spears - 3 - Single – 3

Current Mood: Bored

The only reason  I’m writing this is because I’m pretty much bored.  I have 3 blasting into my ears through my earphone as too not bother Scott because I’m sure Britney Spears would be a distraction to the hockey game. I don’t know about anyone else but I don’t enjoy hockey as much on TV as I do in the actual arena. So in other words I don’t really want to listen or watch it so I’m blasting music into my hears so loud I can’t actually hear anything that is outside my head and you know what? It’s actually really refreshing. Next time your upset or just want to be alone get your computer or mp3 playing and put it on blast in your ears and it feels like your alone. Of course your not and your best friend is next you trying to talk to you but your ignoring them… or maybe not haha. But just try it. But it has to be blasting! That way you can’t hear a thing only the song that going in through your ears. Surprisingly it makes it a lot easier to think. I can truely hear my thoughts without the cell phone or TV distracting me from the thoughts going on inside my head. Maybe I should use this technique to make decisions. Like what I want to do in University because to be honest I actually don’t know what to do. I’m doing a bachelor of psychology because it leads to a lot of other things I could do. I could continue on and do my masters and get a job with it or I could become a lawyer or I could because a social worker or a guidance counsellor. The possibilities are endless. This week  I’m thinking dream interpreter. That must be a pretty cool job. Interpreting peoples dreams to help them with their problems. Yeah as of right now I’m a dream interpreter. Lets see how this will last. lol Well I suppose I’ve wasted enough of your time although I’m sure Kandice Stacey and John all enjoy reading these and finding out what going on in my mind and such.

 

Jenn

Blogging on my iPod.

I found this blogging app for my iPod. Which is really great for times like these when I'm in the mood to blog but not in the mood to sit up.

So anyway, I'm not feeling the best and I can't sleep. It really sucks. Being sick is brutal. I'm coughing up a storm which is making me stomach sick. I really don't wanna miss out on work tomorrow but I have a feeling that's what's going to happen.

Jenn

Mucho Masturbation

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current mood: sexually frustrated

There’s a lot of hormonal talk with a few  of my friends. I’m talking about masturbation with one friend, being easy with another, etc.  As a teenager/young adult I realize my hormones are at it’s peak and it’s peak is really high for us virgins. So what do we do to get rid of these urges? Masturbate? Well I’m a female and female masturbation isn’t as accepted as male unless your a lesbian (even though we all know most females do it) Well how about going out and finding someone to have sex with you? Well then your called a slut. So unless you have a significant other you’re screw or should I say not screwed.  So it’s possible that the reason people put so much importance on being in a relationship because otherwise they wouldn’t be getting any. Am I wrong for thinking this? I think it’s should be publically acceptable for anyone to masturbate. And if someone wants to have sex with someone that's there decision. Now if there having sex with a different guy all the time that's a different story. But having sex with one guy multiple times without being emotionally with them is just getting the frustrations out.  Face it, hormones suck! And we have to find someway to deal with them. it would be easier to do if it were publically acceptable, no matter what way you choose.

Jenn

Good Riddance

Currently Listening to: - - Dixie Chicks - Good Bye Earl

Current Mood: No remorse

About 15 mins ago i wrote a blog where I felt remorse for getting angry with someone who was only being honest with me. I no longer feel that remorse.  I should feel upset. Yes they was being honest with me but still that person knew it hurt and should have chose a better way to say it. I have all the right in the world to be angry.

Jenn

The Truth Hurts

Currently Listening to :- - Dixie Chicks - Taking The Long Way - 01 - The Long Way Around

Current Mood: Emotional

I have to wonder, is it wrong for someone to be get angry with someone who is pointing out truths in yourself that you just wish to hide and keep in the back of your mind because their ugly truths.  Or is wrong that the other person is making those truth known to you and in turn hurting you and making you feel less of a person. Normally I would welcome people are telling me the truth because it would make a normal person feel stronger and try to change themselves. But clearly that’s not true for me. One of my very best friends would always tell me about the things I could achieve if I weren’t so lazy or had the motivation but  I would just listen and hate him for pointing these terrible things to me and we would fight constantly and now unfortunately things see, to have overcome us and we have to end our friendship. But I wonder who is at fault, me or them? The truth teller or the one the truths are about?  It sucks to the max. It’s making me sick thinking about it and I want to stay home today and call in sick and clean and try to get this off my mind but it’s not that easy. So I have to go to work thinking about this and I’m probably going make enough mistakes to get me fired. Or people will see my red eyes and tears (I’m not very good at holding in tears) and ask me what’s wrong. Oh my, at least I got a bus ride to get my tears out.

Jenn

A new idea.

I decided I want to try something different. I welcome anyone who reads it to take this idea and make it their own. So basically I decided i'm going to write. Each blog based on this experiment will be a new chapter is this blovel (blog/novel). So to start this off...

Chapter 1: A New Beginning

Hello internet bloggers. Allow me to introduce myself, my name is Lila Jefferson. I'm 17 years old and only have 2 years of high school left. We start school tomorrow. I'm incredibly nervous. You see this summer I completely changed this summer. After dealing with my best friends death last may and having to talk to a psychiatrist twice a week for the past 8 weeks and counting I've realized I've become an entirely new person. I'm heading back to TNHS (Terra Nova High School) alone. The one true friend I had is gone. One day I'll tell you what happened, I promise. I'm kinda nervous people will think I'm gonna be crazy or something especially this bitch who thinks she everything. Her name is Victoria and yes after Victoria's Secret. He mother used to be a model for them but she retired after she had Victoria and now she's prepping Victoria to be a model for them. She has her two followers that she calls her "angels" like the groups of model for the Victoria's Secret line but to everyone else they're her minions. Anyway, I should probably be getting to sleep. I have an early rise tomorrow. Good night internet bloggers.

Lila

So let me know what you think. Is it completely stupid or a pretty cool idea. Stay tuned for the next chapter next week.

Jenn