Glee!

Currently listening to: Nothing playing

Mood: Tired

At this point I would apologize for not posting yesterday but why should I? It’s not like anyone is reading this. Besides myself. But if I am wrong and someone is reading this and religiously then I’m sorry for not posting. But you have to realize I do live. Yesterday, I went to Marystown and my Glee on DVD. Which I happen to be watching as I type this. It’s an amazing show and if you aren’t watching it then you should get online and find a good link to watch it. It’s one of those happy go lucky shows with a music but it still has some drama on the go. I would tell you but then that would ruin it. The only thing I will say is that there are some pretty good looking people in the show. Along with two Canadians.  Theres not really much more to say.

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Been Awhile

Current Mood: Bored and Tired

Listening to: Breathe – Taylor Swift (Fearless Platinum edition)

It’s been while since I’ve done this so I’m probably a bit rusty. Merry Christmas hopefully yours was good. My was good until the end it. Kind of got ruined by this HUGE fight between me and my dad. It was horrible. By the end of the day I didn’t want to touch anything that i had gotten earlier that day.  If it weren’t for going to my friend Kandice’s house I probably would have fell asleep very early that night. But my Christmas did get brighter. On Sunday I went to Marystown to do some shopping and I ran into a friend that I was kind of on the outs with and we decided that we should talk again. Or that’s the story I’m telling my parents. In all honesty we had been talking for a while. i just didn’t want to tell anyone because I didn’t know how they would react. But I think we’re going to be okay. He’s a good friend and although his criticism can be harsh sometimes it’s the truth and he doesn’t like lying to me he wants me to see the truth and if I don’t like it them for me to change it. New Years is just around the corner. The common question of this time of the year is “What’s your New Years resolution?” My answer is simple. I don’t have one. I never make a resolution, so I never get disappointed. I’m going to try and blog more. Apparently windows has this writer which is what I’m using now. So I’ll probably do it more often.

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Boredom and Boys

I know I've already done this today but I am incredibly bored. I don't really have a whole lot to say so this might be a bunch of complete random rubbish. But I was thinking. I'm really good friends with this guy and I've known him since I was in preschool. But for the past little while it doesn't seem like he cares to talk to me. I always talk to him. I think it might be because he's always stuck up this girls ass. He apparently cares for her a lot. Yet I'm the one that listens to his crap. Thats right I called it crap. Why? Because that's what it is.  He over thinks things. Looks too much into detail and that is why he is seeing a psychiatrist. He's been my friend for a good many years and I've even had a crush on him for a while. Although I feel bad because I don't like doing this to good friends but I've decided to give him the silent treatment. Although he probably won't notice since he too busy taking care of her needs. Not sexual needs. Just everything else. The boy's still a virgin. Yes maybe I'm also a virgin but it's acceptable for me. He's a boy he's supposed to score. Or at least that what the stereotype suggest. Anyway I don't think I have anything else to say. I'm kinda bored and none of the internet movie websites are working. So I don't know what I'm going to do. :(

The Elle Woods Phenomenon

For the past 4 days I have taking the 10 min walk to the gym on campus. For everyone one of these days I went complaining. I was tired, it was cold, I'll go tomorrow. These were the excuses I was trying to pull on my friend who was encouraging me. But did they work on him. Not a chance! Each one of these days he would force me to go. And even though I hated for the entire walk there. Once I actually got into the gym, and got going I was okay. Of course me being me I got bored with the treadmill easily but I listened to my music, focused on whatever was going on downstairs on the track, and not on the time on the machine. I quickly found out that constantly looking down at the time only makes it go slower.

At the gym I workout at there is a half an hour time limit for each machine. For the first three days I would say screw the rule and stay on the treadmill for anywhere from half an hour to a full hour. But today I decided I would switch it up a bit. That was probably the best decision I've made this week (besides actually listening to my friend) because I discovered my new love... The Elliptical. This amazing creation gets your entire body moving. It's kind of like your running but your on a machine. I decided that I would make it part of my daily routine.

Exercise is probably the hardest thing to fit into our daily lives because we're always so "busy". Busy doing what? Being on the computer, talking to our friends/other half for hours on end. If you had to make a change into your life I would suggest putting in an hour workout everyday. Or at least 45 mins. it'll be tough at first forcing yourself to go everyday but take it from me the feeling you get afterword is exhilarating.  When Elle Woods (Legally Blonde) said that "Exercise give you endorphins, endorphins make you happy." She was absolutely right because even though I'm warm, sweaty and tired after my workout I couldn't be happier.

But it takes time getting used to the fact that your going to the gym everyday. I bet you 10 bucks tomorrow I'll be getting a text from my friend telling me if I don't get to that gym I'm gonna hear it. He means business too. Yesterday he fought with me for 2 hours to go to the gym and I ended up going in the end. So if you need that shove to go, ask a friend to either go with you and encourage you. After a week or two going to the gym will become part of your daily routine and you will fill lost if you don't get to go.

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November 6, 2009 (Nothing creative here)

It's 9:58am on a Friday morning and I'm in Chemistry. It's probably one of my worst classes because it's extremely boring. We're basically doing everything I did in high school. I came to university to learn new things not refresh my memory of high school. (For some reason I have the song "That's what I go to school for by Busted stuck in my head) Another peeve about this class is it's freezing outside and I didn't wear a hat so now my ear is acting like a little bitch. So I'm sitting is the very back of an almost empty lecture hall listening to stuff I already know with an incredibly runny nose because it's supposed to snow today. After this incredibly boring class I have to head to my English class which happens to be one of my favourite classes but I haven't been there in a week so I'm kind of afraid to find out what I missed.

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Devils, Angels, and the flu.

It's been awhile since I've written anything. I could say I was way too busy with school to write anything but that would be a lie. And I don't lie.... often. So I just finished my english essay and I figured (Picture though bubble coming out of my head) "Hey, your stuck at home with this awful chest cold, why don't you write something?" And here I am. I don't really have much to say because currently my thought process consists of (Picture a little devil on my right shoulder) "Sleep, relax, fuck school." But on the other hand (yup this time you picture and angel on my left shoulder) "No, you have a test tomorrow you should be studying" (I have a few more lines of this so I'm just going to do it out like a dialogue)
"But it's not like you studied in high school and you done well enough to actually get into MUN."
"But MUN is harder and she should be studying more then she did in High School."
"But she realized it was the set up that caused her to fail those 2 assignments."
"But the fact that she failed them should encourage her to study more."

I'd continue this but it could go on forever.

So instead of studying I've been watching Full House and going through my music either getting rid of it or getting the album artwork. I'm trying to make room on my ipod for my Christmas music. I'm going back home in a few weeks and I'm going to be putting my christmas music on my macbook while I'm there. I guess that's all for today.

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To Crush or To Be Crushed, that is the question.

Crush (informal): a brief but intense infatuation for someone, esp. someone unattainable or inappropriate.

[Dictionary]

Crush: a painful experience, very common amoung middle schoolers (and high schooler's and even adults to a lesser degree) that involves being obsessed with a member of the opposite sex (or the same sex, if u prefer), being attracted to them physically (most common), or emotionally- also called 'puppy love' also: the object of this affection.

[Urban Dictionary]

Although both of these definitions are fairly similar, it is only the Urban Dictionary definition that gives a true meaning. It does this by describing it as "a painful experience". but what neither of these definitions can do is tell you how painful a crush is. I imagine anyone (if anyone) reading this has had a crush once in there life and knows exactly how painful it can be. All throughout high school I had crushes. This summer I told myself I wasn't going to like anyone until I know I can have them. I was good for the summer. But, about a month of living in town, I started hanging out with an old friend. This old friend also happened to be an old crush. One that I had a lot of feelings for. And, unfortunately these feelings returned. Just as unfortunate, these feelings are pretty much at the same strength. What makes the situation even worse is that he is probably the most unattainable guy. He likes another girl and has liked her for some time. This girl tells him she has feelings for him but has yet to prove it and he just sits around waiting for the girl to finally want to be with him. I think the girls a bitch. I thought it before i started liking him and I think it now. She's a cock-blocker. He won't look at others girls in an affectionate way because he is too hung up on her. I thought maybe that if I worked some magic on him I could change his mind about this other girl. But I'm starting to think it maybe pointless and I'm starting to go through the same pain I did before. A pain that caused sleepless nights. Kind of like this one. I just hope I can get over him faster then last time.

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