August 25, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

I haven't written in the past couple of days because I've been busy ready Mockingjay or I've been very sick. But here I am ready to tell you what I've been up to. Well, I've been working a lot and that's about it either working or reading or sleeping. Or watching sex and the city. But I've also been thinking. Should I patch things up with an old friend? She keeps popping up on my msn (I didn't add her either she added me or my macbook msn is fucked up) and then on my youtube subscription box. It's hard. We were very close. But she just walked out and never spoke to me again. Okay so I understand that she was worried that I was angry but it's been what? 3 months. I'm obviously over it. I'm still a bit bitter and I kind of obsess over it. But I'm starting to think maybe the obsession is because I'm not ready to lose her. She was like my sister. I'm starting to wonder if I should take the ball and give it one more shot. It would be over an email of course but why not? Maybe it's time I gave it another try. If she doesn't respond well then I know it's over and I'll stop obsessing over it.

Jennifer

August 22, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

Well I'm alive! Lauren's friend Julie picked me up so I didn't have to go by myself. I had so much fun too. I got a bit tipsy but not drunk. But of course the one thing on my mind was how I would rather be "watching" a movie with Alex. This is completely unhealthy. I should just try to get over him. I haven't even really talked to him. All I know is I want him back. I kind of want to ask him out again but I don't know if I should. I need to ask my friends about this and no one is around to talk to. Oh well I guess I'll just have to depend on sex and the city to get me through the night.

Jennifer

August 21, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

So today not as boring. I went and got my pictures done off for my photography course and I went to see Scott Pilgrim vs. The World with Adam. Tonight I'm going downtown, so I should  have a time there. I haven't talked to Alex tho and it hurts. I know I should be getting over him but I can't. I don't feel like it's over. Not yet anyway. I still feel like we have a chance. We just have to wait I guess. Oh man. I'm super tired. I hope I wake up when I go downtown. I'm kind of scared because I'm going down by myself and meeting my cousin and I've never done that before. I'm sure everything will be okay. If there is no blog tomorrow you know something happened and you should probably call the police. I'll let you go on with your life now.

Jennifer

August 20, 2010 #2

Dear Blogisphere,

So it's Friday night, I have no work tomorrow and what am I doing? Sitting on my couch watching Family channel. I know I'm so cool, your very jealous. Don't worry, I know I'm pathetic. But what else could I be doing? Playing D&D with my apparently non-existent friends. Adam went to the gym after I got home from work. That was about 5:30, it's now 8:30. Druken is working till 9 I believe and even so he'll probably already have plans. And Lauren has plans with her Family. So I'm stuck home alone bored. Which means you've just wasted time out of your boring life to read my boring blog. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have something more interesting for you to read.

Jennifer

August 20, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

Ever tried to fall asleep at night but couldn't because you had a certain someone on your mind? Yeah it's a pretty common thing especially amongst girls my age. The opposite sex is such a confusing species. I wish someone would try a sex translation book. You know like the english to french books they have you get for when you go back to school. It would make my situation a whole lot easier. Then I could tell if he still has feelings for me. Life really fucks us up sometimes especially when it comes to matters of the heart. It goes "Oh wait (insert name here) is happy something must be done about this." and then wammo you're left with a broken heart. But even tho he broke my heart I still want him back and I probably would take him back in an second if he asked. But then again I'd probably make him fight for me too. Just to make sure I wouldn't get hurt again. I guess we'll just have to see. But I'll promise to keep you posted.

Jennifer

Rain, rain, come back to play.

Coming to you live from the beautiful city of Ottawa, Ontario. The capital of this glorious country of Canada.

I was having a conversation with a friend of mine today about how I think the rain is a magical thing and could solve all of lifes problems. I know what your thinking. Rain is a pain in the ass and Sun is a glorious invention by matter in space or the Greek gods, whatever you choose. But what I never got to explain to her is how it could do the impossible. Well say we had one giant storm over the entire earth. As creepy as that would be it means that poor countries like Africa and places with little water would have it. The water would help the, by hydrating them and allow them to grow food to eat. So we can check starvation off our list. With an abundance of water it will allow companies and factories and towns and cities to use the water for electricity and maybe they would increase the look into having water powered cars. This will cause our economy to rise, the war to end and to help global warming. So there's another 3. But wait... How can it stop the war? Well you see there are two things people want; money and power. Well if the economy rises and we no longer use oil the government won't have much more need to fight. So those are a few ways rain can be an amazing thing.

Rain gives me hope every single time it happens. Whether it's a light sprinkle or a full on thunderstorm. But it truly is a magical thing. So next time it's raining go out and stand it with just your t-shirt and jeans and feel the magical and then you'll understand how magical the rain is.

Until next time,
Jenn

Change: Good or Bad?

Change. It's something we all go through. Sometimes we have small changes and then sometimes, like what I'm going through right now, change comes in by the bus load. Change can also be difficult to deal with whether it's for better or for worse. It's trying to figure out which one it is that's the tough part. Take me for instance...

Around the beginning of May I started talking to a guy and we got really close. We'll call him A.This change was good. Shortly after I broke off ties with a friend who I had been fighting a lot with. Also a good change. A few weeks later my new friend introduced me to his friends and I made 3 new friends.We'll call them B, C, and D. Again a good change. Now, here's the kicker. Around the beginning of June my roommate/best friend/sister from another mister moved out and severs all contact with me. It is now July and I'm still dealing with the grief. I have gone through anger, questioning, depression, and now I'm a mixture of feelings. I also can't decide whether this is a good change or not. Yes I maybe losing a best friend but ever since she moved out and I asked B to move in with me. Now B is a boy and since I asked him to move in we became extremely close. I have grown strong feelings for him and it seems that he has strong feelings for me. 

So let's review shall we. We have 3 good changes happening one after the other and then one change that could go either way but whatever way it does go it has caused another good change. So as you can see change can cause massive amount of "WTF". Just ask A and B they've been their for me every time I've cried and got angry or just wanted to vent about what happen. 

So next time something big or small changes in you life remember, everything happens for a reason. That change could hurt for a while but it has to get worse before it's going to get better. I've been through the worse already I'll soon be dealing with the better.

Jennifer