The Fear: Guy got balls for a reason. Maybe they should use them.

Boy.

-noun

   -a male child, from birth to full growth, esp. one less than 18 years of age.

  -a young man who lacks maturity, judgment, etc.

(Dictionary.com)

What you see above is the definition of a boy. See the second definition? This is the nice way of saying guy's are assholes that you can never understand. We grow up our lives being told that one of these days a boy is going to "court" us and then eventually we will marry, have a few kids and live happily ever after. At least that's what the story books and our parents tell us. But this my darlings is not the case. We quickly find out when we reach the age of maturity and are about to head out into the big world of opportunities that the guy probably won't "court" you at all. The women now-a-days are the ones who "court". We spend countless hours on end stressing about how we look and making sure we look "perfect" just in case we may happen to see the guy we're interested in. As much work as that is we now have to apparently approach the guy first as well? When do the guy get to do any work? Oh yeah he proposes. With out luck ladies we'll be the one's doing that now too. I hate to be old fashioned but "Hello!" Girls are too self-conscious to talk to guy. I don't care how show you are. If you don't talk to me I'm going to assume you have no idea who I am. Boy's, you need to grow some balls and talk to us. Society stereotypes men as being strong, not afraid of anything types. While women, are fragile flowers that are better left barefoot and pregnant. So if your going to make jokes about how women are better off in the kitchen like we were in olden days, you better well stick to tradition and open your mouth and say something to us. Because I'm not about to open my mouth and say something to you and get rejected. I'm not that type of girl. 

Maybe this blog made no sense. Maybe you agree or disagree with it. But there are always two sides to the story and coming from my end when a guy says the good guys come in last well maybe that because their not going for the good girls. Because guess what guys, the good girls come in last too.

September 3, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

Have you ever been lonely? Me 2. I'm currently sitting in my living room on my couch/bed for the night and thinking about how this place is crazily empty. I should be able to come out into the living room and see Adam playing Xbox. But guess what. I'm in the living room watching Camp Rock 2. But even after they return tomorrow I'm still gonna be somewhat lonely. I've been lonely since my ex broke up with me. I know what your thinking "Jennifer, it's been over 2 weeks. Get over him!" But you don't even know how hard it is or maybe you do. But never-the-less I still have feelings for him and to be entirely honest I don't know if I'm going to be able to get over him until I get some closure. We've barely talked since the breakup. I think that hurts more then anything. Anyway, I'm gonna stop this mushfest before I start to get upset. I'm getting majorly tired and I have work tomorrow. Goodnight.

Jennifer

August 30, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

My life have been busy busy busy and I've also been away from the internet meaning no blogs. But I'm back and here's what's been happening:

1) I got a job at Walmart
2) I quite my job at Dollarama
3) I'm friends with Kandice again
4) I went to St. Pierre
5) I sprained my foot in St. Pierre
6) I finished Mockingjay

And that's about it. I may elaborate later.

Jennifer

August 25, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

I haven't written in the past couple of days because I've been busy ready Mockingjay or I've been very sick. But here I am ready to tell you what I've been up to. Well, I've been working a lot and that's about it either working or reading or sleeping. Or watching sex and the city. But I've also been thinking. Should I patch things up with an old friend? She keeps popping up on my msn (I didn't add her either she added me or my macbook msn is fucked up) and then on my youtube subscription box. It's hard. We were very close. But she just walked out and never spoke to me again. Okay so I understand that she was worried that I was angry but it's been what? 3 months. I'm obviously over it. I'm still a bit bitter and I kind of obsess over it. But I'm starting to think maybe the obsession is because I'm not ready to lose her. She was like my sister. I'm starting to wonder if I should take the ball and give it one more shot. It would be over an email of course but why not? Maybe it's time I gave it another try. If she doesn't respond well then I know it's over and I'll stop obsessing over it.

Jennifer

August 22, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

Well I'm alive! Lauren's friend Julie picked me up so I didn't have to go by myself. I had so much fun too. I got a bit tipsy but not drunk. But of course the one thing on my mind was how I would rather be "watching" a movie with Alex. This is completely unhealthy. I should just try to get over him. I haven't even really talked to him. All I know is I want him back. I kind of want to ask him out again but I don't know if I should. I need to ask my friends about this and no one is around to talk to. Oh well I guess I'll just have to depend on sex and the city to get me through the night.

Jennifer

August 21, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

So today not as boring. I went and got my pictures done off for my photography course and I went to see Scott Pilgrim vs. The World with Adam. Tonight I'm going downtown, so I should  have a time there. I haven't talked to Alex tho and it hurts. I know I should be getting over him but I can't. I don't feel like it's over. Not yet anyway. I still feel like we have a chance. We just have to wait I guess. Oh man. I'm super tired. I hope I wake up when I go downtown. I'm kind of scared because I'm going down by myself and meeting my cousin and I've never done that before. I'm sure everything will be okay. If there is no blog tomorrow you know something happened and you should probably call the police. I'll let you go on with your life now.

Jennifer

August 20, 2010 #2

Dear Blogisphere,

So it's Friday night, I have no work tomorrow and what am I doing? Sitting on my couch watching Family channel. I know I'm so cool, your very jealous. Don't worry, I know I'm pathetic. But what else could I be doing? Playing D&D with my apparently non-existent friends. Adam went to the gym after I got home from work. That was about 5:30, it's now 8:30. Druken is working till 9 I believe and even so he'll probably already have plans. And Lauren has plans with her Family. So I'm stuck home alone bored. Which means you've just wasted time out of your boring life to read my boring blog. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have something more interesting for you to read.

Jennifer

August 20, 2010

Dear Blogisphere,

Ever tried to fall asleep at night but couldn't because you had a certain someone on your mind? Yeah it's a pretty common thing especially amongst girls my age. The opposite sex is such a confusing species. I wish someone would try a sex translation book. You know like the english to french books they have you get for when you go back to school. It would make my situation a whole lot easier. Then I could tell if he still has feelings for me. Life really fucks us up sometimes especially when it comes to matters of the heart. It goes "Oh wait (insert name here) is happy something must be done about this." and then wammo you're left with a broken heart. But even tho he broke my heart I still want him back and I probably would take him back in an second if he asked. But then again I'd probably make him fight for me too. Just to make sure I wouldn't get hurt again. I guess we'll just have to see. But I'll promise to keep you posted.

Jennifer

Rain, rain, come back to play.

Coming to you live from the beautiful city of Ottawa, Ontario. The capital of this glorious country of Canada.

I was having a conversation with a friend of mine today about how I think the rain is a magical thing and could solve all of lifes problems. I know what your thinking. Rain is a pain in the ass and Sun is a glorious invention by matter in space or the Greek gods, whatever you choose. But what I never got to explain to her is how it could do the impossible. Well say we had one giant storm over the entire earth. As creepy as that would be it means that poor countries like Africa and places with little water would have it. The water would help the, by hydrating them and allow them to grow food to eat. So we can check starvation off our list. With an abundance of water it will allow companies and factories and towns and cities to use the water for electricity and maybe they would increase the look into having water powered cars. This will cause our economy to rise, the war to end and to help global warming. So there's another 3. But wait... How can it stop the war? Well you see there are two things people want; money and power. Well if the economy rises and we no longer use oil the government won't have much more need to fight. So those are a few ways rain can be an amazing thing.

Rain gives me hope every single time it happens. Whether it's a light sprinkle or a full on thunderstorm. But it truly is a magical thing. So next time it's raining go out and stand it with just your t-shirt and jeans and feel the magical and then you'll understand how magical the rain is.

Until next time,
Jenn

Change: Good or Bad?

Change. It's something we all go through. Sometimes we have small changes and then sometimes, like what I'm going through right now, change comes in by the bus load. Change can also be difficult to deal with whether it's for better or for worse. It's trying to figure out which one it is that's the tough part. Take me for instance...

Around the beginning of May I started talking to a guy and we got really close. We'll call him A.This change was good. Shortly after I broke off ties with a friend who I had been fighting a lot with. Also a good change. A few weeks later my new friend introduced me to his friends and I made 3 new friends.We'll call them B, C, and D. Again a good change. Now, here's the kicker. Around the beginning of June my roommate/best friend/sister from another mister moved out and severs all contact with me. It is now July and I'm still dealing with the grief. I have gone through anger, questioning, depression, and now I'm a mixture of feelings. I also can't decide whether this is a good change or not. Yes I maybe losing a best friend but ever since she moved out and I asked B to move in with me. Now B is a boy and since I asked him to move in we became extremely close. I have grown strong feelings for him and it seems that he has strong feelings for me. 

So let's review shall we. We have 3 good changes happening one after the other and then one change that could go either way but whatever way it does go it has caused another good change. So as you can see change can cause massive amount of "WTF". Just ask A and B they've been their for me every time I've cried and got angry or just wanted to vent about what happen. 

So next time something big or small changes in you life remember, everything happens for a reason. That change could hurt for a while but it has to get worse before it's going to get better. I've been through the worse already I'll soon be dealing with the better.

Jennifer

If slaughterhouses had glass walls those who eat meat will still eat meat.

Currently Listening to: Baby - Justin Bieber

Current mood: Tired

A few minutes ago I watched a short documentary called "If Slaughterhouses had glass walls everyone would be vegetarian." starring the one and only, Sir Paul McCartney. Now most people would say that since watching this their going to become vegetarian. Now me I question this. I wonder, how many slaughterhouses are featured in the clips they show. They never say how many slaughterhouses their are in the world and how many of these use these horrific techniques and how many choose to be more humane. Although I'm sure there are many that choose these inhumane actions, I'm also sure that that there are just as many or more then are humane about their actions. Another thing I question is if slaughterhouses are this inhumane and everyone clearly knows it why doesn't the UN or some leaders of the countries where these slaughterhouses can be found put a stop to it all by making it illegal to treat animals this way.

I'm sure stopping eating meat can stop the slaughter of these poor animals but unless a huge market becomes vegetarian all at once it's not going to make much of a difference  because the animals are still going to be slaughtered and put on the shelves for non-vegetarians to eat.

I'm not trying to say that people shouldn't become vegetarian because it's a lost cause I'm saying that  the government needs to do something to help the animals right now. Waiting for the world to become vegetarian will take years but the government can do something now. They can make it illegal to treat animals in such a way and crack down harder on these slaughterhouses. Having annual inspections every 3 months or so and if they find something wrong they shut down the slaughterhouse and get the animals the help they need to recover.

I'm a meat eater. I like my meat. I was once told my a doctor that I had to eat a lot of red meat because I have anemia which means I have low iron in my blood. I become very tired and fatigue. Yes I had to take iron pills but eating red meat also helped with my condition. I didn't have an extreme case but there are very extreme cases out there. So eating meat can be a good thing because face it no one wants to be dependent on medications most of their life. Becoming vegetarian means your not getting your proper nutrients you would normally get from meat so you have to start taking medications. These medications can start to get expensive.

If you watched the video you would have notice that when Sir Paul McCartney spoke about vegetarians being more healthy he show Kiera Knightly and Tobey Maguire.  #1) They are celebrities and have a lot of money to spend on treatments and special medications that insurance may not pay for. #2) I haven't seen much of Tobey Maguire lately (probably cause I'm not a spiderman fan) but in the past year or two Kiera Knightly was on tabloid covers looking anorexic. If thats healthy then god help us.

I'm not trying to say that you shouldn't become vegetarian. I have nothing against people who are vegetarian. It's their choice or it's your doctors orders. But I'm saying if you do become vegetarian you have to be careful. Also, stop putting people who choose to eat meat down. It's our decision or our doctors orders. If you should be angry at anyone or be calling out to anyone its the government. They are the ones who are just sitting by and allowing this to happen without putting a stop to the inhuman slaughterhouses.

I'm sorry PETA I'm sure you think your doing a lot to help the animals and I'm sure you are to an extent but why not try a different approach. Like finding more humane ways the slaughterhouses could use. Yes they may still be killing the animals but at least their doing it in a way that will keep the animal in mind and not just their own stomachs.

Jenn

Stay in School

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Annoyed

You're probably wondering why I'm annoyed. Well that would be because I have to go to work tonight. Although its only for four hours it's still pretty annoying. Those four hours are keeping me from going to Grand Bank today.  You know what I would rather be doing from 5:30 to 9:30 relaxing, or hanging with friends. Basically anything that doesn't involve me serving people or pouring coffee. So here's a message for all you kids in the grades 10 and up who have a choice to stay in school or not. Stay in school. Working at a minimum wage job for the rest of your life is not a fun thing. Use condoms or some sort of birth control... or better yet, don't have sex. Because if you get pregnant you aspirations or going to university are practically gone down the drain. You won't have time to go to school you will have to work all the time to pay pills and support you and your child and when you aren't working your going to have to take care of  that child. So explain to me where school is available to be put in the picture? So be safe and get a high school education and then a university diploma and a good job and be ready to support a family. Just remember Tim Horton uniforms are not flattering... at all!

Jenn

March 25, 2010

Curently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Bored

I'm only blogging because I have nothing to do. I'm sitting in my somewhat packed up apartment with a major headache. The only sounds are from my refrigerator and Violet (my rabbit) drinking water from her water bottle thing (I don't know the proper term for it). I suppose there are lots of things I could be doing. I still have packing to do, I could play my WWE ps2 game (yes I own a wrestling game), or I could give Scott's COD 3 game a try ( I did not ask to borrow it it was left here by him by accident), I could watch some TV or a movie, I could work on my photography course, I could read. The list just keeps on growing. But this headache doesn't allow me to do very much. Noise would just hurt me. The clicking of the keys is bad enough. I've already taken a couple of Tylenol and thats not really helping. So I'm stuck here typing this to no one because no one will probably read it. But if you are reading it you should be glad that I shall no longer be wasting your time. Good Bye

Jenn

Loud Music not only blocks out people but it helps you think!

Currently Listening To:  Britney Spears - 3 - Single – 3

Current Mood: Bored

The only reason  I’m writing this is because I’m pretty much bored.  I have 3 blasting into my ears through my earphone as too not bother Scott because I’m sure Britney Spears would be a distraction to the hockey game. I don’t know about anyone else but I don’t enjoy hockey as much on TV as I do in the actual arena. So in other words I don’t really want to listen or watch it so I’m blasting music into my hears so loud I can’t actually hear anything that is outside my head and you know what? It’s actually really refreshing. Next time your upset or just want to be alone get your computer or mp3 playing and put it on blast in your ears and it feels like your alone. Of course your not and your best friend is next you trying to talk to you but your ignoring them… or maybe not haha. But just try it. But it has to be blasting! That way you can’t hear a thing only the song that going in through your ears. Surprisingly it makes it a lot easier to think. I can truely hear my thoughts without the cell phone or TV distracting me from the thoughts going on inside my head. Maybe I should use this technique to make decisions. Like what I want to do in University because to be honest I actually don’t know what to do. I’m doing a bachelor of psychology because it leads to a lot of other things I could do. I could continue on and do my masters and get a job with it or I could become a lawyer or I could because a social worker or a guidance counsellor. The possibilities are endless. This week  I’m thinking dream interpreter. That must be a pretty cool job. Interpreting peoples dreams to help them with their problems. Yeah as of right now I’m a dream interpreter. Lets see how this will last. lol Well I suppose I’ve wasted enough of your time although I’m sure Kandice Stacey and John all enjoy reading these and finding out what going on in my mind and such.

 

Jenn

Blogging on my iPod.

I found this blogging app for my iPod. Which is really great for times like these when I'm in the mood to blog but not in the mood to sit up.

So anyway, I'm not feeling the best and I can't sleep. It really sucks. Being sick is brutal. I'm coughing up a storm which is making me stomach sick. I really don't wanna miss out on work tomorrow but I have a feeling that's what's going to happen.

Jenn

Mucho Masturbation

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current mood: sexually frustrated

There’s a lot of hormonal talk with a few  of my friends. I’m talking about masturbation with one friend, being easy with another, etc.  As a teenager/young adult I realize my hormones are at it’s peak and it’s peak is really high for us virgins. So what do we do to get rid of these urges? Masturbate? Well I’m a female and female masturbation isn’t as accepted as male unless your a lesbian (even though we all know most females do it) Well how about going out and finding someone to have sex with you? Well then your called a slut. So unless you have a significant other you’re screw or should I say not screwed.  So it’s possible that the reason people put so much importance on being in a relationship because otherwise they wouldn’t be getting any. Am I wrong for thinking this? I think it’s should be publically acceptable for anyone to masturbate. And if someone wants to have sex with someone that's there decision. Now if there having sex with a different guy all the time that's a different story. But having sex with one guy multiple times without being emotionally with them is just getting the frustrations out.  Face it, hormones suck! And we have to find someway to deal with them. it would be easier to do if it were publically acceptable, no matter what way you choose.

Jenn

Good Riddance

Currently Listening to: - - Dixie Chicks - Good Bye Earl

Current Mood: No remorse

About 15 mins ago i wrote a blog where I felt remorse for getting angry with someone who was only being honest with me. I no longer feel that remorse.  I should feel upset. Yes they was being honest with me but still that person knew it hurt and should have chose a better way to say it. I have all the right in the world to be angry.

Jenn

The Truth Hurts

Currently Listening to :- - Dixie Chicks - Taking The Long Way - 01 - The Long Way Around

Current Mood: Emotional

I have to wonder, is it wrong for someone to be get angry with someone who is pointing out truths in yourself that you just wish to hide and keep in the back of your mind because their ugly truths.  Or is wrong that the other person is making those truth known to you and in turn hurting you and making you feel less of a person. Normally I would welcome people are telling me the truth because it would make a normal person feel stronger and try to change themselves. But clearly that’s not true for me. One of my very best friends would always tell me about the things I could achieve if I weren’t so lazy or had the motivation but  I would just listen and hate him for pointing these terrible things to me and we would fight constantly and now unfortunately things see, to have overcome us and we have to end our friendship. But I wonder who is at fault, me or them? The truth teller or the one the truths are about?  It sucks to the max. It’s making me sick thinking about it and I want to stay home today and call in sick and clean and try to get this off my mind but it’s not that easy. So I have to go to work thinking about this and I’m probably going make enough mistakes to get me fired. Or people will see my red eyes and tears (I’m not very good at holding in tears) and ask me what’s wrong. Oh my, at least I got a bus ride to get my tears out.

Jenn

A new idea.

I decided I want to try something different. I welcome anyone who reads it to take this idea and make it their own. So basically I decided i'm going to write. Each blog based on this experiment will be a new chapter is this blovel (blog/novel). So to start this off...

Chapter 1: A New Beginning

Hello internet bloggers. Allow me to introduce myself, my name is Lila Jefferson. I'm 17 years old and only have 2 years of high school left. We start school tomorrow. I'm incredibly nervous. You see this summer I completely changed this summer. After dealing with my best friends death last may and having to talk to a psychiatrist twice a week for the past 8 weeks and counting I've realized I've become an entirely new person. I'm heading back to TNHS (Terra Nova High School) alone. The one true friend I had is gone. One day I'll tell you what happened, I promise. I'm kinda nervous people will think I'm gonna be crazy or something especially this bitch who thinks she everything. Her name is Victoria and yes after Victoria's Secret. He mother used to be a model for them but she retired after she had Victoria and now she's prepping Victoria to be a model for them. She has her two followers that she calls her "angels" like the groups of model for the Victoria's Secret line but to everyone else they're her minions. Anyway, I should probably be getting to sleep. I have an early rise tomorrow. Good night internet bloggers.

Lila

So let me know what you think. Is it completely stupid or a pretty cool idea. Stay tuned for the next chapter next week.

Jenn

Violet Shanaynay Stansbury

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood:  Bored and tired.

I don’t really have much to say. But then again i don’t have much to do either. I’m watching One Tree Hill and when that’s over I’m going to work on my photography course. I got a bunny yesterday. Her name is Violet. Here  is a picture of here:

This is not a good picture. She kind of looks like a demon  here but in real life she’s super cute.  Right now she’s chilling out in her cage.  I’ll probably take her out after when I’m reading my photography lesson.

One thing I’ve noticed lately is that when I take my hair down after work the smell of coffee just spread through the air. Not a good smell in my opinion.

I suppose that’s all for now. ttfn

Jenn

Valen-fucking-tines Day

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Depressed

I received my first package from my photography course and I’m loving it. But I’m not here to talk about my photography course I’m here because it’s valentines day and just like every year I end off by feeling depressed because I’m single. I’ll be 19 in May and I still haven’t had a boyfriend. I know 11 year olds who have had more boyfriends then I have. I know there 11 so it doesn’t really count but still. When I was 11 I didn’t have a boyfriend. People are always like, “Stay single. Your better off?” But these people are also the ones that are married or have boyfriends.

I’m not desperate. I won’t just go out with anyone. I just want someone to be with. you always see the happy couples. Before tonight I was the usually valentines day is for card companies. Which is kind of true. It is for card companies and for people who love each other. Along with jewellery stores and chocolate stores.

Ask me again next year what I think of valentines day and I may have the same answer or if I’m with someone I may love the holiday. Only time will tell.

Jenn

Completely Random and Pointless… Enjoy

Currently Listening to:Miley Cyrus - The Time Of Our Lives - When I Look At You

Current Mood: Hot                             

      

                    

So I’m lying down on my futon, a.k.a my bed, a.k.a my couch and I’m watching Meekakitty and I suddenly decided that i should write a blog. I have no idea what to write about since there is nothing really on my mind so this is going to be incredibly random.

So my friend John, you may have read his blog (John d'Eon), has decide to become a vegetarian. He said a specific name on it because he can drink milk and eat ice cream (or at least I hope) and other good stuff like that but he won’t eat meat or eggs. He decided to do this because of some things he seen on the PETA website which horrified him and now he is scarred for life! (Probably not I’m just in the mood to be dramatic) Anyway back to my point. So he is not eating these things and I say more power to him. I myself would not be able to do it because I am not a huge fan of veggies at all. I’m pretty sure I was T-Rex in a former life. (hehe) When I commented on his blog I said good for him as long as he don’t push it on people. Now I highly doubt he will because that’s not the type of person he is. But still I know some people will try and force stuff down your throat like you will die if you don’t swallow. This is done a lot with religion (I said this was a random blog) but lets not get into that. So I’m support everyone in their own endeavours as long as they don’t try to make me do it. My view on things is “If I don’t eat it then someone else will” but then someone might reply “But if one person decides to stop then more people might follow and then less cows pigs, etc will not have to suffer for your love of meat.” But then I shall reply “I like to eat meat. I like getting my vitamins from actual food. You eat what you want to eat and let me eat my piggy's and turkeys”  Also in my comment I said for him to go get some protein pills from the drug store. This is because without eating meat he won’t be getting as much protein. Maybe I should have told him to look up the exact vitamins he should take… :S Oh well he will probably read this anyway and hopefully take my advice.

Hmmm.. lets see what else is there to chat about…

I had an hours nap today and I think I may have screwed myself over a little bit because now I can’t get to sleep… although I haven’t exactly tried. hehe oh well. Man this blog is getting long. You’ve probably either stopped reading or are incredibly bored. but if you are reading and are interested. Leave me a comment and I will love you.

Woot! Paperback writer. It’s a good song by the Beatles. I have a bunch of their CD’s because my dad got the newer versions for Christmas and he gave me his old versions to me. But I believe he jipped me on a few CD’s. Such as the white album. I know for a fact he has that on CD and I want it!

So I’m incredibly warm. This place is like super hot even with the fan on. The fact that i have my laptop on my lap isn’t helping it either. This is going to make going to sleep difficult because I hate heat. Even as a baby. My mom used to go into the hospital nursery and hear me crying and ask the nurse if they wrapped me up in a blanket to which the nurse would reply “Yes. Is there a problem?” and then my mother would explain that I hate the heat and won’t shut up until you un wrap my and let me cool down. I love my mommy. (hehe) of course at that point she was a single mother and wasn’t a huge fan of my soon to be adopted dad and her husband.

They will be married for 16 years in September :)

Wow this is incredibly long. You must be getting bored. I’ve gone through 3 or 4 songs already. But I’m in the mood to blog so you must suffer. :P

So I bought this new makeup the other day along with this cool new blue nail polish which I want to wear really bad but I can’t because I can’t wear it at work :( I put it on the other day because i forgot about the no nail polish rule and it was super pretty but when i tried to take it off it kind of stained my fingernails blue. But I worked it off and it managed to wear off.

So I think I’ve taken up enough of your time. Toodles

Jenn

I’m a Timmy Hoe!

Currently Listening to: This Addiction – Alkaline Trio

Current mood: Tired

I haven’t really blogged in a while and neither have my friends so I figured I would blog about my new job.

I work at Tim Horton’s. I know what your thinking, the job isn’t really all that delectable. But to be honest it’s actually really good. I work with really nice people and a few cute guys. The only part that I don’t really like is at the end of the day my feet always hurt. But it’s okay after a while they won’t hurt anymore. Before i even applied working at Tim Horton’s mortified me. But once I got the job I realized it isn’t as bad as what I thought. Like I said the people are super nice. They’re always asking how I’m doing or telling me that I doing really good. And some people will talk to me asking me if I'm in school where I’m from… Blah blah blah.

Thats about it. There’s nothing more to say.

Jenn

Snow Day

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current mood: Bored

When I was in school I would pray for a snow day. Getting to sleep in, and extra day to study, etc. But now as a member of the working community I want no snow at all. Snow means no side walks and waiting in the blistering cold for a bus. Today I was lucky enough to get a call saying “Stay home.” But the unfortunate part is I can barely see out my window and being stuck in this apartment is driving me crazy. I really hope that it’s not too too bad tomorrow and I can walk to work. Or at least to traders so i can get a new psp game to occupy my boredomness.

Jenn

Internet Boredom

Currently Listening to: Taylor Swift - Fearless [Platinum Edition] - You're Not Sorry

Current Mood: Content?

I put a question mark next to content because i honestly don’t have much feeling in me right now. I’m taking a break from reading my book, The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks, but the internet is extremely boring. The only time it’s of any use is if you have a shit load of homework to do and it’ll come in handy, if you want to talk to friends you don’t see all the time, or your obsessed with a site like piczo, facebook or twitter. I was once obsessed with all of these. But since then I’ve grown old with them. I’m only keeping facebook because of my side business and twitter keeps me up to date with whether my friends are taking a crap or just getting out of the shower.  Nevertheless these site have become a chore to me and I get on them, see what’s new then get bored. The internet has grown boring to me, as most things do after a while. I need to a new site to become obsessed with. Preferably one without make-believe farms.

Jenn

O’ Death (Jennifer’s Version)

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Bored

So if you have read John d’Eons blog he has been going through a lot of death lately. Well This is also a death blog. But instead of talking about death in my family, I’m going to talk about the amount of teen deaths that's happening where I used to live. Since the beginning of 2010 there has been 4 deaths. 2 suicides, 1 accident, and I’m not sure on the other one. I’ve always known there was a lot of suicide and death in the world especially in young people. It just didn’t seem entirely real until it happens to people that live in your area. I didn’t know the people. Well I knew of one person, but not really all that well. It just makes you wonder… who’s next? Could be anyone me, you, your best friends, sisters, cousins, boyfriend.

This month is February. February 14th is most commonly known as valentines day. But, it’s also uncommonly know as the day when most people commit suicide. Wait let me fix that… the day when most TEENS commit suicide. This is usually because they feel unloved. Even if they are surrounded by people who love them more then they know. I love my friends more then anything and I hope that they know that. If I ever found out one of them committed suicide I would probably be a complete mess. And since they probably are the only people that read this blog they will soon find this out.

Anyway enough of being depressed. I’ve very sorry if I took your smile and turned it upside down. Here’s a quick fix… listen to some glee music. That always brightens my day.

Jenn

I’m Mrs. Lonely

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Bored and Lonely

After having company basically for the entire month of January I’m alone for the first time.  It’s weird. I kind of liked having company. But I’m working now so I’m hoping that, that will keep me busy. I’m also hoping that my photography course will soon be here because after 5 days of no creativity and I means not even enough to do my 365 pictures. And now I’m feeling artistic and romantic.  Which is weird for me. Maybe it’s because I’m sick of being single and just want to be with someone. Or maybe for once I’m actually getting into valentines day. I just hope I’m working that day :P

This is probably really boring but I’m bored so your just gonna have to suck it up.

So I’m sitting here watching cake boss and really wanting a piece of cake and I think. I’m turning 19 in a few months I have to have the party of the lifetime. No I probably won’t have a whole lot of people there but it has to be spectacular. The gears are turning in my head as we speak :)

Alright , alright. It’s over you can go live your life now.

Jenn

TEEHEE

Kandice wanted me to write a blog. So I did “A blog”

Old is Good

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Pointless Blog

Currently Listening to: Owl City - Ocean Eyes - The Saltwater Room

Current Mood: Boredom

I will warn you now. There is no purpose to this blog so if you don’t want to waste 2-5 minutes of your precious life stop here and go on with your life. So basically me and Kandice are both on our computers and on msn but I have no one to talk to because everyone is gone to bed so I’m stuck writing this and wasting everyone else's life. even though I’m pretty sure no one reads this. So I’m only occupying myself. So I handed out 22 resumes today. i think that’s pretty good. Now I just need to hear back from one place that wants to hire me or something. I want a job right bad. because i know once kandice goes back to gb I’m gonna be bored to bits. I suppose I can ask cam and matthew to hang out but i dunno if they will want to and scott can only come out on the weekends. Blah! i need friends. :( I means like friends in town that i can hang out with because in here i am a loner.

I AM J Stans

Job Search

Currently Listening to: White Liar – Miranda Lambert

Current Mood: Tired

Tomorrow begins my official search for a job. Although I have already passed out a couple resumes to Travis Parsons with Vinland Photography out in GB and with a Traders not far from my apartment I am officially starting my search tomorrow. Tonight I went on the mall’s website and looked at which stores are looking for people to hire wrote down anything that wasn’t fast food and started printing off resumes. I had approximately 20 stores written down so I printed off 23 just in case. I may see if some of my favourite stores are taking applications. i hope I get something soon. If I don’t hear back from anyone by next Friday I’m going to start looking at Fast food places like McDonalds and Tim Horton's. Maybe I’ll even apply to a few restaurants. Although I would rather stay out of the food industry unless it’s a grocery store. Wish me Luck!

I AM J Stans

HAPPY!

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Happy

For once in a very long time I’m happy. I don’t know why, i don’t know how. I just know I am. Will it last long? no clue. Who cares. I’m going to embrace it! I’ve been getting really into my photography lately too. I think I’m going to start carrying my camera with me everywhere I go so if I see something I could just take a picture.  I really think hat 2010 is going to be my year. Tonight I went for a walk. Tomorrow I’m going to go for another one. I don’t really have much to say. but stay tuned.

I AM J Stans

Not a resolution but a to-do list.

Currently Listening to : Nothing

Current Mood: thoughtful

In the past 12 hours I’ve made this realization. I’m a horrible person. I talk about people behind there backs, I make horrible accusations about people I don’t even know, I accuse my best friend of doing horrible things when deep down I know it’s not true. I realized that there are changes I need to make in my life and the only way I’m going to be able to do that is if I force myself to. I have to stop leaning on other people as a backbone or support.  I keep telling myself the only way I can do something is if I’m told to do it. So the only thing for me to do is to tell myself to do something. I have to tell myself to get out and go for that walk, to get up and clean my room even though I would rather sit on my computer. This is what my friend has been telling me the past year. I shouldn’t be leaning on other people for support. Yes it’s okay when times are really tough yes that when I lean but I need to learn to take care of myself. So here is my to-do list for the year 2010:

1. Lose at least 20 lbs.

2. Keep my room clean for at least a week

3. Get to know someone before I make a decision on them.

4. Go for a walk everyday

5. Get a job and keep it.

6. Be Happy.

6 Things to do in 12 months. Shouldn’t be too hard. I’ll keep you posted.

I AM J Stans

New years.

Currently Listening to: Nothing

Current Mood: Gleeful

Happy New year! We are officially in the year 2010. how weird does that sound? Feels like we should be driving flying cars or something. I rang in the new year with my best friends. It was different having all of them in the one room.  The last time that happened was Safe grad and nobody was happy that night.

this entry is taking me so long to write because I'm so occupied with glee. So i’m going to go and shall ttyl.

I AM J Stans